I Wonder

I wonder,

If there are tears in her eyes,

Or if they are just,

Shining reflections from the stars in the sky.

I wonder,

What does she do at night

When we are asleep,

Does she bury herself in her blanket,

Suffocating herself neck deep?

I wonder,

When she smiles,

Is it real,

Or is it something forced into her body,

Like a drug from a vial.

I wonder,

If she covers her arms for a reason,

Or just because she doesn’t like the cold.

I wonder,

If her laugh is genuine,

Or is it something that is controlled?

I wonder,

When she looks into the mirror,

Does she see the beauty within her,

Or is it all just a confusing blur?

I wonder,

If she ever feels peace,

All that over thinking must be tiring,

Doesn’t she ever want to just stop,

And sleep?

Can she ever learn who she is,

Someone equally worthy of love,

Is she aware that,

Someone will be by her side,

Through all that rain and thunder?

Does she understand that,

What’s necessary is being who you truly are?

This is something that i never cease to think about, and

I Wonder.

-Suhani Gupte